there will be goodbye someday.

Someday in the future, I will reach a point in my life where certain decisions must be made and that is the time for me to move on.

There are people who couldn't understand why I would spend so many years in a fandom, as a fangirl...it's okay because that's what I want and now I know what are the things that are real in my life. 

I'm not going to regret spending so many times and putting in so many efforts on the fandom(s). I believe I have matured, I believe I have learnt a lot over the years as a part of the fandom. And not forgetting to mention the great people I've met and those whom I've become good friends with. 

I have my own dreams and goals I want to reach in life. Maybe one day I'd have to make a choice between my fandom and real life, who knows.  And if there is a decision that must be made, I'd choose real life for sure. This might sound like I'm not loyal to my fandom and some might ask How could you just leave it behind like that? 

I have shouted their names, I have missed them at nights, I have learnt a lot from the fandom and I have probably annoyed people around me with my fangirl self. I have cried together with them, I have seen people leave, I have had the thought of giving up. But I stayed, until now and for the years to come.

But no matter how many times I go all asdfghjk over them, I know there will be a time when all these would stop. I know that time would come eventually, the time for me to say goodbye and move on.

It isn't about abandoning it, and it won't be something I used to like either. I'd still continue liking them and support them but in a different way. Sometimes at night, when I think of the good things and times, no matter how long I've been away from them, they still manage to plaster a smile on my face.

I imagine by that time I'd be busy with study and work, and I won't be able to split my time for both real life and fandom...but maybe at nights before going to sleep, I might accidentally come across their songs from my playlist and let those sweet memories flood my mind.

There are a lot of ways to show your support. Buying their albums or merchandises, spending hours on the internet and neglecting what is important in real life are not the only ways to show your support. You wish your idols all the best but it's very important for you to spend some time to think about how you want your life to be.

This is more like a note to myself because I know I've once wasted a lot of time and selfishly abandoned what are equally important in my life.

This is really out of order and basically words vomit, sorry, verbal diarrhea.

book hunting. done!

So my family and I went to Penang for a wedding dinner last Saturday. To be very honest, the dinner wasn't my main purpose of going to Penang because I didn't know who were the ones getting married and I've never liked going to events like that.

Before the dinner, we went to shop at Queensbay. I wanted to buy some new clothes and I was dying to go on a book hunting! My to-buy list is growing bigger and bigger every day.

One of the reasons I don't like to live in Perlis is that we don't have a decent bookstore here, by decent I mean bookstores like Borders, MPH, Kinokuniya and Popular. It's a pain in the ass.

Novels I bought!

 

from bottom:

• Casual Vacancy by J.K.Rowling. Bought it because, well, it's written by my favorite author. I know this has nothing to do with the Harry Potter series but I should give it a try.
• The Hobbit by J.R.R. Tolkien. I've always wanted to read The Lord of the Rings trilogy but never got the chance to do so. I've bought the LotR trilogy before spm and wanted to read The Hobbit before it.
• The Da Vinci Code by Dan Brown. I've read the Chinese translated version before back in elementary and I've forgotten like most of the story so I bought the English version.
• Lost Symbol by Dan Brown. Because my collection of Dan Brown novels will be incomplete without it.
• The Case Book of Sherlock Holmes by Arthur Conan Doyle. Because I'm currently addicted to Sherlock.
• 1984 by George Orwell. Because this book is in the list of book recommended by Goodreads.

Holiday is gonna be fun.

Sherlock

Finished my exam and I think it's okay for me to say I've finally graduated from high school. I've waited for this day for so long.

Besides spending my time reading books I've always wanted to read and spend hours on the internet fangirling, I'm going to spend some hours on watching movies and series. Watched some good old Disney cartoon movies and I have to say everything back in my childhood days was awesome.

My friend Hana introduced me to Sherlock, a British television crime drama which I've seen floating around my dash. I have to say I'm already addicted to it. Crime, detective, Sherlock Holmes and British accent. Gosh!

Sherlock Holmes (Benedict Cumberbatch); Dr. John Watson (Martin Freeman)

I knew that I've fallen in love with this series when Sherlock, played by Benedict Cumberbatch said "This is Christmas" when he knew about the forth suicide in the first episode, A Study in Pink.

I'm just at The Blind Banker now because Dailymotion has never been kind to me. Found some links hosted on other websites on some FY and yeah, this is awesome.

And I don't know why but I really like Watson in this series.